Stuck

I’ve been stuck on these two rows for about a week! I found a mistake, so frogged it, re-did the rows, made another mistake, frogged it again. Caught up. Another mistake! Frogged it.

Now I’m taking a break.

It’s a basic stitch, so something else must be going on here. I’m rather busy right now, so tired when I sit to crochet. While I want to crochet I don’t have the headspace for it. Frustrating on one hand, but so is re-doing the same two rows.

Sometimes you just got to step away from the creative project, breathe, have a break, then get back into it.

I look forward to getting back to crocheting this blanket…next week sometime.

One Too Many?

Despite trying to limit myself to only having one crochet project on the go at once, and only starting a new project after I’ve finished a project.

I’ve broken this rule.

Shamelessly.

Not only have I begun a new crochet project without finished the first project, I have actually got three crochet projects on the go at once!

Three!!!

What can I say? I couldn’t help starting a new project, with a new stitch and pattern to learn. And to get to use new yarn.

The excitement of starting a new project called to me and I gave in. It’s a little addiction. It also keeps my mind active by learning new skills and trying a new pattern. I feel inspired which crosses over into other parts of my life.

I have a choice when I sit down to crochet on what project I work on, meaning I’m more in the creative flow rather than doing what I think I should do.

This is more relaxing and fun. A healthier way to approach my creative projects. The downside is that I can feel a little overwhelmed and a bit frustrated that I’m not finishing any projects. But, the positive side outweighs all of this. And that can only be a good thing.

Also, when completing creative projects it really is about the journey. The journey is personal. For me, my journey is about having more than one project on the go at once, this is my joy and when I’m thriving. So, I embrace it.

What is your approach like to your creative projects? Please share below in the comments.

Lilliana

Bunny Art

As part of my general art class this term we had a lesson dedicated to a guest artist Cat Leonard who taught her unique approach. Once again, I felt like a fish out of water, plunged into the unknown and having to adapt and learn.

This is all part of being a student so it wasn’t like I was opposed to this lesson or process. I just have to ensure I keep an open mind, pay attention, and be ready to give it a go, and to adapt if it doesn’t go to plan, which of course is part of the artistic process.

At least now when I comes to drawing and painting I know how to mentally prepare for trying something new and going with the flow. But how else can I be self-aware or mindful of this unique process for myself?

I gave this new technique a go, while being able to accept my feelings of hesitation, and amazingly I produced a rabbit using a mix of mediums and techniques. Not what I was expecting.

Maybe my attitude of being open minded helped?

By not having any pre-conceived expectations, as well as an open mind and a willingness to ‘give it a go’ and being mindful, I’ve come away from the class with a painting of a bunny which I’m happy with.

In addition, I’ve not only learnt a new technique, but I’m inspired to try this again at home – by myself (I’m going to try a dragon!). This is a sign of how much I’ve grown with my artistic skill. It’s not so much going up a level, but how I feel.

Can I do this at home? Alone? Before I was too scared to try, but now I’m willing to. This is the real next step in my unique journey as an artist – stepping out and going it alone, prepared for any sort of outcome. And also by being mindful, I can continue to learn along the way, gaining insights to myself, my approach and how I relate to the art I produce.

Stay tuned for how I go!

Have you noticed this stage when you’re creating? Please share in the comments below.

Lilliana

Starting Again

The tangle of yarn in the photo is the result of un-doing my current crocheting project. Sometimes, even with a plan or instructions to follow things don’t always turn out right.

There’s nothing wrong with unpicking, unraveling or deleting words in your creative project. It’s part of the process, but it’s just not seen in the final product. Which is why I’m putting up this photo. It’s a reminder of the true creative process. The bits that have gone wrong and need to be fixed. Things that don’t need to be feared or to weigh me down or stop further progress.

This isn’t quite the back to the drawing board sort situation, but there’s a big pile of yarn waiting to be crocheted again. This will take a good few hours in the afternoon to catch up to where I was. It’s all worth it, especially as I think if the final product. And that’s part of the key when having to re-do part of the creative project. Not to think of what’s lost, but what will be gained and the finished project.

Going backwards is sometimes just part of the creative process of going forward!

Lilliana Rose

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Writing Bliss

What better way to start the day and finish the week by writing! Especially the first week of the new year!

I’m still in holiday mode, so by taking just a little time to write I feel connected to my creative flow and I get my writing fix which sustains my soul! All in under an hour.

Sometimes these snatches of time to write are super valuable and give me a chance to slip into a state of writing bliss.

Lilliana Rose

www.lillianarose.com

Summer Solstice

From dear friend Anna Hood from Guiding Light Psychics has written about the summer solstice.

Another perspective of celebration at this time of year. I’m feeling very thankful, and looking to cooking up a storm with my family tomorrow and sharing quality time with them.

From Anna:

Summer Solstice blessings everyone!

While traditionally celebrated on December 21st, astrologically, in Australia 2017, December 22nd (tomorrow) is the longest day of the year. The Sun is then at its highest and brightest, and this marks Summer Solstice or Litha.

While it is Yule or Winter Solstice in the Northern hemisphere (on which the Christian festival of Christmas is based), here in the Southern hemisphere, it is our harvest festival.

Summer Solstice is a time of abundance: of enjoying and connecting with nature, and certainly of celebrating and receiving the Earth’s bounty. So the practice of feasting and gift giving as we do at Christmas in Australia is not out of step with the season!

This is a time to be thankful, and to enjoy and to share abundance with all. Feast and be merry, give and receive freely.

Blessings to all!

Love Letter to Myself

I’ve made it back to the local markets for some letter writing to myself and some food shopping for Christmas 🎄I’m feeling organised for Christmas, but I’m sure there’s something I’ve forgotten to do! Fortunately I have a few days to remember before Christmas.

Writing love letters isn’t easy, and it’s not something I’ve done much in my life, especially to myself. But it was a fun exercise to do and challenging. It was an effort to sit and write what I love about me, without letting my logical mind edit before the words were written. It was slow going. The words didn’t flow at times. But I persisted and wrote a love letter to myself. At the end of the letter, I felt more in tune with myself, more at peace, and I’m sure this is something I could do more often.

I look forward to reading my the letter in a year’s time! And to see if I’ve developed more wats to love myself.

Lilliana Rose 🌹

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Doorways

Looking through doorways before some journaling and wondering where they may take me in my imagination.

An inspiring environment to do some journaling.

Late, late, late!

I’m a bit late this morning so not much time to write, so little I think getting my notebook and pen out is really a token effort!

But between sips of coffee I opened my notebook. For the precious few minutes available I planned part of a workshop I hope to present in the new year. Just goes to show sometimes all you need is a few minutes! And to give it a go instead of focussing on the lack of time available.

Lemons

Drawing and painting isn’t my art form, writing is. For some reason this is how my mind is wired, to see the world in stories and words. While, I’ve always struggled to learn how to draw and paint, (it doesn’t come easy for me) I’m drawn to trying to learn and develop this artistic skill.

The other month, I enrolled in a 10-week course. Each time I thought about going to the first class I’d preferred to go and stand in the corner of a room and cry. I didn’t, and I managed to make it to the first class, then the second, third and in fact I completed all ten classes with perfect attendance. But did I learn to draw and paint?

I did. I think. But the feeling of wanting to go stand in the corner and cry never managed to go away. I pushed through these emotions, I wanted to grow and face my fear, and my internal dialogue that was full of negativity. I was challenged every step and spent a lot of time not looking at other’s work so as not to compare myself. I needed to focus solely on trying my best, with the emphasis of not expecting to produce a masterpiece the first time, which wasn’t the purpose of me doing these classes, yet the internal expectation was innately there, even though I know I never write a story perfectly the first time. I’m comfortable with that. I know the process with writing. I don’t know this process with painting. And there are some differences with these artistic processes.

I write in solitude. Art class was with other people, and each stroke I made on the paper was in full sight. I wasn’t used to feeling so exposed or vulnerable when creating art. The last three weeks were about painting a still life of lemons on a canvas. I’m putting these stages out here publically not to get praise or feedback, but as a way to be vulnerable in my creation in all its imperfections, because the what I may perceive is wrong with it doesn’t really matter. I tried. It’s my first step on a much bigger journey. So here’s my first step of painting on canvas for the first time.

outline of lemonsFirst draw the still life on paper. Then transfer on canvas by scribbling charcoal on the back and transferring the image to the canvas – not to dissimilar to what I’d used to do in my early years of schooling. Then I covered the canvas in the first layer of acrylic paint. I wasn’t inspired to paint lemons. I’m used to choosing my creative topic. I questioned how hard was it to draw lemons? Hard. For me at least. I went home about to throw the canvas in the bin. All artists get to this point. Thanks to computers my novels don’t get ditched, but I have thrown out my stories I wrote when growing up.drawing-lemons.jpg

I went back for the next lesson. I added another layer of paint, shaping the lemons and more importantly showing myself a glimpse of the style of painting I was allowing to form. Bold. Modern. Colourful.

first coat of paint on lemons

The third lesson of painting lessons, I learnt about glazing. I touched up the colours to add depth. I finished. And if I had thrown my canvas in the bin after the first lesson, I would never have realised there is some skill there for me to develop.

lemons last coat of paint

And I’ve booked in for another 10 weeks with Splashout Studios.

I’d love people to share below the creative process when trying a new forms.

Thanks for reading my post,

Lilliana Rose

www.lillianarose.com