Starting Again

The tangle of yarn in the photo is the result of un-doing my current crocheting project. Sometimes, even with a plan or instructions to follow things don’t always turn out right.

There’s nothing wrong with unpicking, unraveling or deleting words in your creative project. It’s part of the process, but it’s just not seen in the final product. Which is why I’m putting up this photo. It’s a reminder of the true creative process. The bits that have gone wrong and need to be fixed. Things that don’t need to be feared or to weigh me down or stop further progress.

This isn’t quite the back to the drawing board sort situation, but there’s a big pile of yarn waiting to be crocheted again. This will take a good few hours in the afternoon to catch up to where I was. It’s all worth it, especially as I think if the final product. And that’s part of the key when having to re-do part of the creative project. Not to think of what’s lost, but what will be gained and the finished project.

Going backwards is sometimes just part of the creative process of going forward!

Lilliana Rose

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Lost and Found

I just had a minor panic as I couldn’t find my two favourite pens! And I’d just sat down to write at a cafe!

Don’t Panic!

After a few deep breaths, and taking out my trusty cheap BIC pen I decided to look in a different section of my bag. There they were!

Phew!

Lucky! One of these pens were a gift, and another a special treat to myself, so I was annoyed they were lost. While I can write with any pen, there’s more meaning when I write with these because of the story behind getting them. And this can help with the creative flow. Or at least with my frame of mind when I sit to write, which in turns influence the creative flow.

And the flow was good this morning! In which I’m grateful for 💖

Lilliana Rose

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Writing Bliss

What better way to start the day and finish the week by writing! Especially the first week of the new year!

I’m still in holiday mode, so by taking just a little time to write I feel connected to my creative flow and I get my writing fix which sustains my soul! All in under an hour.

Sometimes these snatches of time to write are super valuable and give me a chance to slip into a state of writing bliss.

Lilliana Rose

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New Year Blessings

Happy New Year!

Blessing for the new year ahead.

I’m looking forward to the new, unexpect doors that will open for me, which is both exciting, and scary at the same time!

Also I’m looking forward to more cafe pondering and chewing the fat over life and sharing it. And a lot more journaling.

What are you looking forward to?

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Happy New Year!

It seems that every year is a big year with lots happening, the good, the bad and the ugly. As we say farewell to 2017, I’d like to take a chance to reflect on the year that was.

Three top things that shaped my 2017 are:

3) Beginning Café Pondering blog

2) Starting up a journaling group on Meetups, Inspirational Journaling

1) Teaching ESL students

Of course inspiring family and friends, but that goes without saying 😉

There are so many other things too that shaped my 2017. The little things that whispered softly and can be easily over looked. Like how I made friends with the lady I shared an office with at work. But it was more, we shared creative endeavours, and encouraged each other to write and be creative. There was the signing off on my research proposal for my PhD. A writing workshop over a weekend in Sydney with the HayHouse publishers. Becoming an Aunty again. Starting art classes, with Splashout Art. Publishing my poetry book Fading Farmer, which I had held completed for two years unable to release out into the world. Plus so many other events I can’t quite remember, the ones that were negative and ugly which I will keep from here, as I am looking to release those events to move on to the new year. Like some of the world events, the ones that rock you to the core, the ones that cause the tears to flow, the ones that leave imprints on your heart.

As I remember the ‘good’ and forget the ‘bad’ I turn my attention to 2018.

What am I looking forward to? Right now, there are so many new doors opening for me, some of which I don’t know yet, it is difficult to see ahead for what may come in the following months.

I’ve managed to narrowed the list to three main things I’m looking forward to:

3) Presenting writing workshops (to make sure I do this, I’ve scheduled a Travel Writing workshop early February!)

2) New writing endeavours, writing more ‘life writing’ works.

1) Continuing my research on my great grandma, for my PhD, and learning more about my heritage, as well as growing and extending myself as I study.

I’m also looking forward to meeting new people, sharing my experiences in real life and on blogs with people. Continue my art classes and developing my skills with oil paints. To write more poetry. To simply write and journal and find the flow in life that nurtures me as best I can.

Starting a new year can be daunting. I don’t have a day job to rely on. I’m looking. For now I’ll have more time to write. The horizon ahead is wide with the haziness of the unknown, the forecast continually changes and I am constantly reminded that I’m not in control. But by focussing what I’m looking forward to helps me to move past the fear of the unknown, and allows me to deal with not being in control, because at least I can adjust how I respond to the situations. And by being grateful for the year past, and particular events, and interactions is a positive way to say goodbye, and move on.

Please share what you are grateful for in 2017 below in the comments and what you are looking forward to in 2018.

May 2018 bless you,

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Hectic Time of the Year

Often during the year there are busy moments, but I can’t help comparing them to this time of year – the lead up to Christmas. To me, this time of year feels more hectic than any other, especially in shopping centres, cafes, even simply driving around. It’s like there’s a panic in the air. Deadlines urgently have to be met, jobs cleared before people go on holidays, cooking treats made,Gingerbread.JPG and of course Christmas gifts bought. I find it hard to escape the chaotic energy buzzing around.

In amongst this busyness there are times when I find moments of peace within me, and in my own personal environment. This reminds me how this time of year doesn’t need so busy, and how restful and rejuvenating the sense of peace is when I don’t go into this hectic flow. Sure it’s busier with extra jobs of Christmas preparation but I want to approach this time of year with a harmonious mindset instead of being on edge with rushing around.Christmas tree

Peace on earth, had taken on a new meaning for me. While I’d like peace to be on earth, it’s a long way off and a challenge. What I can do is start with peace internally within me. And when I’m in this mindset I find it more harmonious to reflect on the year that was, releasing it to help make room for the New Year. Also in this mindset I find I reassess what’s important in my life, and how friends and family have influenced my year, and my life journey. I list off people and events to be grateful for, which enhance my inner sense of peace, which in turn evokes a sense of joy within me and I keep connected to my personal life flow. This all hits a deep root of what’s important for me at this time of year.

Merry Christmas, may this time be safe, peaceful, and a joyous time as 2017 comes to a close.

Lilliana Rose

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Love Letter to Myself

I’ve made it back to the local markets for some letter writing to myself and some food shopping for Christmas 🎄I’m feeling organised for Christmas, but I’m sure there’s something I’ve forgotten to do! Fortunately I have a few days to remember before Christmas.

Writing love letters isn’t easy, and it’s not something I’ve done much in my life, especially to myself. But it was a fun exercise to do and challenging. It was an effort to sit and write what I love about me, without letting my logical mind edit before the words were written. It was slow going. The words didn’t flow at times. But I persisted and wrote a love letter to myself. At the end of the letter, I felt more in tune with myself, more at peace, and I’m sure this is something I could do more often.

I look forward to reading my the letter in a year’s time! And to see if I’ve developed more wats to love myself.

Lilliana Rose 🌹

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Review and Renew

My gorgeous friend Rebecca from A Blissful Existence is offering a guided review of 2017 and renew for 2018 with a series of reflective questions and mandalas to colour.

She is generously offering this in a free PDF or if you want a little more detail there’s a more comprehensive version to purchase.

Click here to check out her Review and Renew.

I’ve downloaded and printed mine and can’t wait to work through and release the year that was in all its glory and dilemmas and dramas, to help clear the way for the new year.

What I really like about what she’s presented here are the mandalas to colour. I write a lot, so I really like the chance to approach my personal reflection differently, with colour and meditation. It’s a nice change for me and helps to bring in new insights.

This time of year is when I do deep reflection about my life and the direction I’m taking. This year I’ll be doing it a bit differently with the help of mandalas from Rebecca 💖

Do you have any particular ritual you like to use to reflect on the year that was and herald in the new year?

Lilliana Rose 🌹

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I am Grateful for…

Despite the busy lead up to Christmas I find myself with time to reflect about my life.

Continuing the theme of letter writing, today I wrote about what I’m grateful for this year. While I have a more detailed post coming up on this topic, this letter was different to what I’ve done before. I’ve written it to be read in a year’s time, it was short and not full of detail. It’s a record of my life, a moment in time of my life and something I can keep and even reflect back on in future years.

Plus, I got to use my brand new pen I was recently given. Inspiration plus!

A simple ritual, writing down all I’m grateful for, and despite lots going not to plan in my life this year, I have so much to be grateful for. The extra good part of writing this letter was by the end of it I felt full of joy and positivity. And that’s the sign of a good ritual, and why the simple task of writing down what you’re grateful for is so beneficial 💖

Lilliana Rose 🌹

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In a year from now…

First day of holidays and it’s time for self reflection and thoughts of the future.

It’s hard to think what my life will be like in a year’s time, but I do know that it will be very different from now. I look forward to sealing the letter and opening it in a year’s time. I wonder how much will have come true? And if I care if it hasn’t? Will something better have happened in my life?

I’ve also taken the time to write a letter to myself about the highlights of this year so far. There have been a lot. It will be a joy and perfect reminder to also open this letter in a year’s time to remind me how much I’ve traveled, to show how far I’ve journeyed, and that I have grown even though at times it might not feel like it.

Time for some dreaming as I write.

Lilliana Rose 🌹

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