Too Early!

With a dentist appointment scheduled this morning (2 fillings!) and bubs unsettled during my teeth check up the other week, I’ve decided to come early so I can get a coffee and settle him with a walk.

With a need to have some creative space I decided not to bring the writing I’m working on at the moment (I’m sleep deprived as well). But… after arriving an entire hour early (I’m in shock how I even managed to do that?!) I’m sitting in a cafe drumming my fingers not knowing what to do. Bubs is fighting sleep, but is at least content, and I the coffee has given me a clear head and I do actually want to write! All I have is a near new notebook, and no ideas. Just the desire to want to write! If only I bought along that novel I’m currently reading?! Which I had intended to do but after the third trip to pack the car this morning the thought of finding time to read seemed something so next year. Plus I don’t want to feel like I have to write every time I’m at a cafe. It’s almost be giving myself permission not to that I now want to!

This time is valuable, both thinking and chilling. At least I’ve used this time to ponder, and write this post. And I’d better finish up or before I know it I’ll be late!

Changes of Grief

The other day was my dad’s birthday, I have to think too much to work out how old he’d be, I do know more easily he’s been gone nearly 16years.

My poem, The Present was in the Mozzie, and was a lovely read when I opened my mail.

Feeding

Caffeine to feed my body

Academic writing to feed my mind

Cafe with bub to feed my soul

This is more than a trip to a cafe for a coffee!

It’s been 9 months..

Hello big size coffee I missed you baby 😘😘😘😘😘😘😘

Being pregnant I couldn’t stomach much coffee so had to down size. I love my coffee and missed the joy of slowly drinking my flat white in cafes when writing. And now with bubs in the pram, I can return to old habits.

I’m in heaven πŸ’• and I’m sure the words will flow!

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Big changes

So much to write journal about… πŸ’• There’s been a lot of changes lately. It’s good to finally sit and journal.

And a walk is a good way to get baby sleeping!

The last few weeks have been full on, good, bad, and ugly. With one dog sick, a week later Bub is born, another week later my other dog is suddenly terminally ill and is now a star in the sky. I’ve not had time to write, journal or much else. But that’s life. And it’s a new flow that I’m having to adjust to. I wouldn’t have it any other way (though I wish Astro was still with me!)

No Lights!

I was just getting into my editing of my academic paper in a cafe when of all things there was a power failure! It’s sort of exciting but also frustrating. It’s now a little too dark to edit on paper and I was just in the flow!

The unexpected things which disrupt the flow! But the question is has this been beneficial or detrimental? Or neither?

I did consider leaving, but then a few lights came on nearby, so I had a bit of light to continue. I kept editing, mainly because I was so close to finishing this task! And I wanted to not just finish but continue what I was doing. And I couldn’t help think no his people would write in the most difficult situations and poor lighting. So why not keep going?!

All sorts of events and things can disrupt the flow, it’s how you react that matters. I could’ve gone home, but I stayed, wanting to keep connected to even a little of the flow I was in. And it helped. Round one of editing done!

A Rose is a rose is a rose…

Paint a rose I thought!

It will be easy I thought!

Gah I think I have too many lines πŸ™„

Astro is serious about it all, and Kimba is happy!

Must be time for a break…

Going it alone with a different technique as part of my Easter weekend cave style creative binge!

It’s good I’m trying to apply what I’ve learnt in class, but it’s hard!

It’s the next step in my creative journey and I’ve jumped in so the only option is to swim!

It’s early stages yet, so who knows how this rose might turn out!

Easter Cave

My aim for the Easter long weekend is to go cave-style.

I plan not to leave my house! And to relax and work on my creative projects, especially my painting.

Yet on Good Friday, I got out of bed and the desire to go and get a coffee and write was too strong to resist. So I gave in. And wrote a few pages. This was a good result, and choice for me to have made in the moment. It would’ve created too much tension with in me if I’d decided to resist and stay home as planned. Sometimes the flow is strong and I don’t need to resist.

A part of me wants to connect with the world, and with my immediate environment. To get out of the house for a change of scenery, a blast of fresh energy, and to interact with my surroundings!

Besides I can always go cave style for the rest of the day and weekend! Which is an important way for me to re-charge my batteries so it’s a ‘must do’ on my weekend list. It’s good to know that even though I do want some cave time, I also want to be with people, and it’s good to get this balance.

On My Own!

I’m about to go it alone and paint free style using a technique I learnt the other week!

So far I’ve had to work through a creative block, the weather, paper which was smaller than I’d wanted, no stool or place to put my paints etc.

I reckon I’ve finally got it sorted, though a last min tire adjustment with where I’m painting because of the drizzle of rain.

Fortunately I’ve got a bit of undercover area albeit it small!

About to test out what I learnt in art class the other week.

I suspect a dragon is going to be too hard… here goes, jumping in!

Inspired

What better way to start my Saturday than writing in a cafe and starting a new notebook! This bank page doesn’t scare me! I can’t wait to start filling this new notebook with words πŸ’–

I feel a poem coming on πŸ˜€

Lilliana Rose🌹