Replenishing my Stock

When going to get a new notebook the other day I discovered that I didn’t have many left. Well, actually I only had one. This is so not like me. Usually I have too many, to the point I begin to wonder if I will get around to using them in this lifetime and I need to stop myself from buying more.

It feels great to have filled so many notebooks with my creative writing. I felt even better having an excuse to go to the shops and buy more. And I can’t wait to fill them with words.

Lilliana

Unexpected Progress

I don’t feel like I’ve been doing much handwriting in my notebook of late. I’m a new mum, lost a dog, and trying to find a new routine.

But I must have been quietly writing down the words because today I started a new notebook.

This simple act shows me I’ve made progress with my creative writing and that I’m not stagnant.

It’s not always easy to track progress with creative endeavours, they’re measured by a different scale. For me, it’s the start of a new notebook.

Lilliana

Forward Intuition

At the start of the year, when I was meandering though the sales I decided to buy a new quilt cover for winter. This very ordinary purchase was driven by my intuition. I know this because logically I could’ve made do with the quilt cover I had, it was only a few years old, and nothing wrong with it. So with a tempting discount on the price, I decided to once and for all to clear away the old and bring in the new. At the time it was all very straight forward, and a forgettable event.

Until now.

I’ve just put my winter quilt on my bed with the new cover.

Straight away I felt uplifted and happy.

It was as if my January-self knew that my June-self was going to be in need of a ‘pick-me-up’ and had arranged this to happen through the purchase of a cheap, ordinary quilt.

Forward intuition on my behalf.

And a message from my January-self?

To consider symbology, the quilt has butterflies on it. With a newborn baby, my life has been transformed and is taking on a new set of wings. And I’m now in a one cycle in numerology terms. New beginnings are starting and its apt the butterfly is here to remind me of this.

All thanks to my January-self finding her intuition and buying a new quilt cover (while ignoring the logical reasoning not to).

I look forward to seeing more forward intuition in my life!

Lilliana

The Walk

Nearly two months ago, I lost one of my dogs, Astro, to brain disease. There’s been big changes recently in my life, and it’s interesting when simply walking along a familar path how it’s the same but also different and filled with opposing emotions, happy and sad, at the same time.

The Walk

(C)  Lilliana Rose 2018

Today was the first walk,
as a new family
along the beach
Kimba on the left
pram on the right
me following behind
Kimba excited
Bubs sleeping
me remembering
today is the first walk
without Astro.

 

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Change is in the Air

This morning I decided to head into the Central markets, for a sneaky scrambled eggs breakfast, and for some time to write in a cafe. A trip that would normally take 15 minutes, took an hour because of traffic. And when I got to the cafe the chef was off sick.

I’m glad I still made the effort to go. The young girl at the cafe made some beautiful scrambled eggs, and I wrote. I began typing up a letter as part of my family research which is address to my unborn child – a letter I wrote over a year ago well before I was pregnant, and at a time when I’d given up all hope of having a baby.

I realised the significance of this trip into one of my favourite cafes in the Central markets. The next time is going to be very different for me. I’m not sure when the next time will be. But it will involve a pram, my baby, and quite possible not much writing.

This morning’s trip into the markets may not have been the perfect last time, but it was just as good to get the insight of how much change is in the air for me, and how different such a visit will be in the future. And to be reminded of the letter I wrote (stay tuned for more about this, but you’re going to need to be patient!).

Depending of course when baby decides to come!

Lilliana

Doing it Differently

I don’t normally stick notes or anything into my journals. I might it if is a travel journal, but I don’t for my everyday journaling. For some reason I simply write by hand.

But this time I’ve decided to do things differently. Maybe it is the style of this new journal, full of inspirational quotes at the bottom of the pages? Or the colourful inspiring cover, and occasional internal pages which seem to call my muse to me.

Either way, I’ve started by sticking in a number of fun quotes that I’ve collected from fortune cookies. But there’s more to the story. I’ve had these fortune cookies when going out with my very close writing friends. When we have our catch up over Thai food and talk all things writing and life. And with one friend now moved away, these quotes remind me that I am supported on my writing journey, and that we had some fun evenings together. They are more than just quotes from fortune cookies. They are little gateways into my recent memories, and so they now have a special place at the start of my new journal.

Lilliana

Look within ~ there is something beautiful, something sacred inside you, a space full of infinite wisdom

One Blanket Finished

This particular crochet baby blanket has had a bit of a journey in its creation. I started out using star stitch but struggled to keep the rows the same length. While the stitching looked great, the blanket was slowly getting narrow which really was no good.

Determined to get it right and learn how to do the stitch I frogged it for the wonky rows and gave it another go. The second time around I was a little better – but only for a few rows before I once again dropped a stitch at the end of each row.unravelled yarn

Why couldn’t I get this?

I re-watched the YouTube video, found a few more to try and help learn how to do the star stitch. I just couldn’t get it right. Then I decided this particular stitch was simply too hard for me right now. I finished off the row I was working on, folded the blanket in half and cringed at how narrow it was becoming. project gone wrong

For a moment I thought I could do a fancy edging to hide the mistake. That could have worked. But it wasn’t satisfying for me. I’d know the blanket wasn’t finished correctly, and while I had done my best I really felt I could do better. This blanket simply didn’t meet the personal standard I set for myself.

I had tried. I had frogged it, twice. Then re-watched videos but it wasn’t coming together. So I decided I needed to use a different stitch and/or pattern, something that was more suitable to my skill level. I had no idea what that was.

I posted on FB, my friends thought don’t worry, do a fancy border. But it wasn’t good enough for me.

So I put a post on a crocheting group asking for suggestions how I could use this yarn to make a baby blanket – one that was easy!

The responses were to try courner2corner (C2C) pattern; it was quick and easy. I searched YouTube, found a great video or two which explained the pattern well, and I started again, with the same yarn and a slightly bigger hook.

And the result was much better. I have a baby blanket that keeps its shape, it was quick and easy, and much more enjoyable for me to stitch. And I completed the blanket well before baby’s due date.

None of this process, or hours and hours of work are seen in the final product. And it’s very likely I’ll soon forget how I had to problem solve, persist, and practise to finish this creative project.

finished corner 2 corner

Sometimes it’s more about me and how I can adapt to a current project. When to persist, but also when to realise that maybe there’s another approach to be taken – one that’s easier and less stressful, but just as satisfying when the project is finally completed. And I can say, the blanket is finished to the best of my current ability. I can tackle harder projects once I’ve practised some more.

 

What projects have you started which have taken unexpected turns but still results in being finished? Please share in the comments below.

 

Lilliana Rose

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Last Page

There’s only a few pages left in my beautiful journal, and I know that it is time for its use to come to an end.

This writing session will be the last time I write in this journal. This is the book I use to do my personal journaling in over the last few years, and it holds a lot of thoughts, emotions, and memories of times which have been happy, fun, and also difficult. The pages have been a good friend, a comfort, and a mirror.

It’s finally come time, after starting this notebook late November 2016 for it to be filled with my thoughts and words, to let them go, close the door on the past, and get ready for fresh pages to fill with my words.

While writing in this journal has been a joy with it’s thicker paper that soaks up the ink from my fountain pen, and an inspiration with its stunning cover, it’s time to move on. It is time to find another notebook to use as a comfort, mirror and friend for the months ahead.

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View a scene from Christmas Wings

Have you viewed the scene performed by actors? Check it out below.

It’s so exciting to see my words come alive by simply being spoken.

Christmas Wings was one of the most viewed loglines in 2017 at WildSound.

Christmas Wings by Lily Rose

Genre: Animation, Fantasy

Zarna is a shadow fairy born without wings. To fit in she steals wings from living creatures. This year she’s looking for her own set of Christmas Wings.

My Screenplay, Christmas Wings, is about a shadow fairy, Zarna who was born without wings. She is the only shadow fairy without wings, and she feels left out, and to fit in she uses her magic to steal wings from other living creatures. At Christmas, she wants her own Christmas wings, and goes to steal the wings from an Angel. Instead, the Angel sends her to hell, where Zarna begins to see the damage to has done to other living creatures and is repentant.

The screenplay is about Zarna’s journey of how she learns to accept who she is, even though she is different as she has no wings, as well as accepting others for who they are.

New Saturday Ritual

I’ve developed a new Saturday ritual, quite by accident. In my search to try new cafes to write, I’ve found a peaceful way to start my weekend. It’s quiet, rustic, and the sun comes through the window making it warm and relaxing. The coffee is great too! All of this helps the words to flow.

A perfect way to not only start a Saturday morning but also the weekend 💕

Lilliana Rose 🌹