Change is in the Air

This morning I decided to head into the Central markets, for a sneaky scrambled eggs breakfast, and for some time to write in a cafe. A trip that would normally take 15 minutes, took an hour because of traffic. And when I got to the cafe the chef was off sick.

I’m glad I still made the effort to go. The young girl at the cafe made some beautiful scrambled eggs, and I wrote. I began typing up a letter as part of my family research which is address to my unborn child – a letter I wrote over a year ago well before I was pregnant, and at a time when I’d given up all hope of having a baby.

I realised the significance of this trip into one of my favourite cafes in the Central markets. The next time is going to be very different for me. I’m not sure when the next time will be. But it will involve a pram, my baby, and quite possible not much writing.

This morning’s trip into the markets may not have been the perfect last time, but it was just as good to get the insight of how much change is in the air for me, and how different such a visit will be in the future. And to be reminded of the letter I wrote (stay tuned for more about this, but you’re going to need to be patient!).

Depending of course when baby decides to come!

Lilliana

One Blanket Finished

This particular crochet baby blanket has had a bit of a journey in its creation. I started out using star stitch but struggled to keep the rows the same length. While the stitching looked great, the blanket was slowly getting narrow which really was no good.

Determined to get it right and learn how to do the stitch I frogged it for the wonky rows and gave it another go. The second time around I was a little better – but only for a few rows before I once again dropped a stitch at the end of each row.unravelled yarn

Why couldn’t I get this?

I re-watched the YouTube video, found a few more to try and help learn how to do the star stitch. I just couldn’t get it right. Then I decided this particular stitch was simply too hard for me right now. I finished off the row I was working on, folded the blanket in half and cringed at how narrow it was becoming. project gone wrong

For a moment I thought I could do a fancy edging to hide the mistake. That could have worked. But it wasn’t satisfying for me. I’d know the blanket wasn’t finished correctly, and while I had done my best I really felt I could do better. This blanket simply didn’t meet the personal standard I set for myself.

I had tried. I had frogged it, twice. Then re-watched videos but it wasn’t coming together. So I decided I needed to use a different stitch and/or pattern, something that was more suitable to my skill level. I had no idea what that was.

I posted on FB, my friends thought don’t worry, do a fancy border. But it wasn’t good enough for me.

So I put a post on a crocheting group asking for suggestions how I could use this yarn to make a baby blanket – one that was easy!

The responses were to try courner2corner (C2C) pattern; it was quick and easy. I searched YouTube, found a great video or two which explained the pattern well, and I started again, with the same yarn and a slightly bigger hook.

And the result was much better. I have a baby blanket that keeps its shape, it was quick and easy, and much more enjoyable for me to stitch. And I completed the blanket well before baby’s due date.

None of this process, or hours and hours of work are seen in the final product. And it’s very likely I’ll soon forget how I had to problem solve, persist, and practise to finish this creative project.

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Sometimes it’s more about me and how I can adapt to a current project. When to persist, but also when to realise that maybe there’s another approach to be taken – one that’s easier and less stressful, but just as satisfying when the project is finally completed. And I can say, the blanket is finished to the best of my current ability. I can tackle harder projects once I’ve practised some more.

 

What projects have you started which have taken unexpected turns but still results in being finished? Please share in the comments below.

 

Lilliana Rose

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Easter Cave

My aim for the Easter long weekend is to go cave-style.

I plan not to leave my house! And to relax and work on my creative projects, especially my painting.

Yet on Good Friday, I got out of bed and the desire to go and get a coffee and write was too strong to resist. So I gave in. And wrote a few pages. This was a good result, and choice for me to have made in the moment. It would’ve created too much tension with in me if I’d decided to resist and stay home as planned. Sometimes the flow is strong and I don’t need to resist.

A part of me wants to connect with the world, and with my immediate environment. To get out of the house for a change of scenery, a blast of fresh energy, and to interact with my surroundings!

Besides I can always go cave style for the rest of the day and weekend! Which is an important way for me to re-charge my batteries so it’s a ‘must do’ on my weekend list. It’s good to know that even though I do want some cave time, I also want to be with people, and it’s good to get this balance.

Last Page

There’s only a few pages left in my beautiful journal, and I know that it is time for its use to come to an end.

This writing session will be the last time I write in this journal. This is the book I use to do my personal journaling in over the last few years, and it holds a lot of thoughts, emotions, and memories of times which have been happy, fun, and also difficult. The pages have been a good friend, a comfort, and a mirror.

It’s finally come time, after starting this notebook late November 2016 for it to be filled with my thoughts and words, to let them go, close the door on the past, and get ready for fresh pages to fill with my words.

While writing in this journal has been a joy with it’s thicker paper that soaks up the ink from my fountain pen, and an inspiration with its stunning cover, it’s time to move on. It is time to find another notebook to use as a comfort, mirror and friend for the months ahead.

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